how did it get this hard? i ask myself every day why dont i learn from experience instead of repeating the same mistakes time after time?
I'm not a child anymore (though i still feel about 17). i have my own child, who is the reason i live. I am old enough to know better but no....when it comes to relationships i am crap. I see what I do wrong, I curse myself but everytime its the same.
I could be happy, people seem to like me, i have no problem making friends or finding boyfriends but i have sussed it. Once they get to know me i am the most boring person in the world. i even bore me most of the time. I'm sure I'm boring anyone who reads this.
I have just got too settled too soon and always do it ... most of the time i'm led to believe its what "the other half " at the time wants. I cant seem to break the cycle but i really want to.
