grief

i am writing this cos i know it is highly unlikely anyone will read it. I have suffered my biggest loss ever recently and do not know how to deal with it. I don't want to worry or upset my family and friends with how i feel but feel i am going crazy not talking about it. My boyfriend died this day 3 weeks ago and nothing has felt the same since. my thought is that i can write here all the stuff that is driving me crazy. dont feel up to it tonight but will start to record all soon, possibly even tomorrow, am not sure as i am taking things day by day. when i do though i think i will be doing so in a letter type way to him. for now good night and i miss u and love u baby xxx